I was only fifteen.
Fifteen and no longer a virgin.
You’ve done it now. So fucking what?
Severe nausea overpowered the looming embarrassment I was sure to feel the next week at school.
Because of this day, twenty years ago at the time of writing this, I have never considered sex to be something special. Even now I struggle to give it meaning. I have to meditate. Prepare myself. Remind myself that it’s good—that it’s not just an act of human nature that happens at random for no particular reason, that it can mean … love. I know this. But sometimes, I just don’t care. I could happily live the rest of my life without sex again.
At one point this book was one of the best sellers on Amazon and right now for a tiny bit of time, you can get it for $1.19 and free shipping if you have Amazon Prime. Link below. All I did was open the book and pick a random paragraph, knowing whichever one I chose would be great.