The entire process takes one hour. They give us five and a half grand for Zooey’s 2008 Jeep Grand Cherokee. We go straight to the bank so… Read more “The Taste of Cigarettes: A Memoir of a Heroin Addict pg’s 98-99”
But we, the junkie, sell our soul to Mr Black, and not because of our past, present, or future, because heroin is a nasty black spell that wants to ruin us and does. So once the junkie is strung out and fucked, the junkie looks and cries for anything in their sentimental past to replace family, so everyone the junkie talks about is a “best friend” or “brother” or some kind of “uncle.” Because once you take that plunge, and stick that spike into your tangled blue, helpless veins, you hit the reset button on your life, and relate everything you love and hate—then or now—to an illusion of family, due to the sudden loss of yours. And that hex you have very unintentionally put yourself under—when the doctor no longer feeds the habit they helped start, or when you were too young and stupid to think this could ever happen to you—is the sole reason.
When a junkie loses loved ones, we do anything in our instant messaging power to revisit the past, whether it’s people, places, things, or all of the above. And somehow, it is always the goddamn same as before, never a smidge of difference. That is why we are in the position of revisiting, and not a current state of whatever it is that connects us with this sentimentality.
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she wanted to be a poet so she went to college for 8 whole years (bad start); she became a professor at a junior college instead: (makes more… Read more “molded minds”
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it was the championship game: no outs in the bottom of the last inning. I was on the mound and I thought about a beautiful young girl;… Read more “no balls”
I guess it’s not so bad … dreaming in the dark with Debussy a Frenchman name Erik Satie a pack of 99 cigarettes (wearing yellow flowers like… Read more “dreaming in the dark”
For those who haven’t read my first book, The Taste of Cigarettes: a memoir of a Heroin addict, published by Vine Leaves Press of Australia, here is… Read more “The Taste of Cigarettes (free PDF!)”
in a house in Huntington Beach a family of ten, two parents three orphans five dogs, carried the burden of me. then after Thanksgiving and Christmas the… Read more “5 dogs 3 orphans”
my poem, Drunk at Midnight, was selected for ZPublishing’s next anthology, “AMERICA’S Emerging Poets. I was in “California’s Emerging Writers” but this is much more of an honor that… Read more “America’s Emerging Poet!”